Even my darkness is light to you.
M. W. Smith
Darkness – Sometimes in life it comes like a big heavy blanket and it covers our whole life. Our hopes, our dreams, our wishes … they’re all covered in pitch black darkness.
Michael W. Smith’s song challenged me today to change my perspective. My darkness is light to God. He knows a way out. He sees the end of the tunnel. And what challenges me the most is that He knows what my darkness might be good for. Maybe there are things I can learn in this dark time that I would not learn in the light:
- Trusting Him when all seems lost.
- Trusting that His promise still stands even though year after year goes by and nothing seems to move.
- Learning to remind myself of the times in the light where I saw God’s mighty hand move.
- Learning how to consequently exchange enemy lies for godly truths.
- Training my trust and faith in Him to be strong and independent of the intensity of light in my life.
I love the Bible and its honesty. The people didn’t hold back their thoughts but spoke the truth about how they felt.
In Psalm 77 the poet was in deep darkness, too. He cried out to God and didn’t hear a response. He longed to find comfort but couldn’t. Maybe he asked himself „How did I get here?“ He says in Vers 5 „I thought about the former days, the years of long ago; I remembered my songs in the night.“ I my mind that translates to “I used to be a content person, with vision and passion. My heart used to overflow with songs of praise about God’s goodness and mercy. I used to know what I was doing and why I was doing it. But those times are long gone. Now I sit in darkness and I don’t know how to get out.“
But in Vers 10 the psalmist says: “To this I will appeal: the years when the Most High stretched out his right hand. I will remember the deeds of the Lord; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago. I will consider all your works and meditate on all your mighty deeds.” In other words “I won’t be overcome by this darkness. I won’t believe the lies of the enemy that God has rejected and forgotten me. I know He is mighty, I have seen it in the past and I will see it in the future! He is the same yesterday, today and forever! I won’t give up! I will remind my soul over and over again, that God is good, that God is mighty and that He sees me!“
And I trust that one day my darkness with be light to me, too.